The Duality of Good and Bad by Brian Montgomery
I've noticed about myself, and I believe it will be similar for others, that I have two opposing sides to who I am; two sides not altogether different than the dark side and light side of the moon. On one side, I am extremely logical and pragmatic which solidifies sentiments of confidence and direction in my experiences. However, on the flip side of my mind, is a fearful side plagued with doubt. I remember a saying from somewhere about the size of your dreams being inadequate unless they scare you (which is a good measure), but I can ensure anyone reading, frankly, when the dark side takes over, I'm scared shitless. It's like a complete 180 degree turn from one side to the other, and sometimes I wish I could erase that part of me.
Life is great when I am operating in the logical side of my mind. Time on this side of the neighborhood of my brain generates hope and plans and goals. I can acknowledge the things I am learning, appreciate the efforts I am putting forth, and feel pride in the noticeable progress I am making. I cruise through to-do lists and routines like the convertible top is down in my car and the wind is in my hair. It definitely seems like the most work gets done during the good times. I can always count on laying down at the end of the day, while I'm in this frame of mind, and feeling proud of the accomplishments I made. I can go to sleep peacefully, excited to start the process all over again the next day.